... if you're ever gonna grow.
~Bright eyes

Been a little down lately. Random thoughts just keep flowing through my head and its really hard to focus on anything... except every little while it goes "i wish i could see him..."

Its just that I'm getting bogged down. Life is too routine. Things are getting really too hard. And I try to go out, but I really can't afford it, so all my fun gets pissed on everytime I remember that I only have x amount of money in the bank...

And my house proves to be anything but nurturing... but what's new? Its amazing, its almost like while this place gave me the foundations to do what I'm doing... I've also had to achieve these things DESPITE it. I know it doesn't make sense, but people rarely understand...

Been crying lately. Don't REALLY know why, but I really think its just a combination of it all. So I've been drinking a lot lately... More than I should prolly...

Went out with Jenny last night. We hopped from bar to bar having a drink here and there. I must say the most interesting time was meeting "W" (cute, ex-military guy) and his friend "J" who both work at ABC Package Store. Jenny and I procede to laugh hysterically that we've randomly met someone who works at the coolest liquor store we've ever been in. We chatted with "W" for a while, where he enjoyed kissing my hand and hugging me apparently cuz he kept doing it. Okay, so I'm walking tall a little from that...

Its nice to actually have something nice to think about...

I know he was drunk, but he said I was cute...